I have been playing around with all kind of new stuff, all from GNU/Linux related things to the studding of the Qabalah and reading the Tarot. I even have use them all together, to enlighten me on hard subjects and what to do.

To know who you really are and to be able to use it is the only tool you need for make miracles, and get you over all energy going.

But how do you find a big tool like that, it is not all physical it is not all mental it is not given to you and you need to look to find it. You might not find it all at once, but a knife is not sharp before it is sanded the first time.

I haven’t found it all and I’m not sure I’ll before I take my last breath, and move in to spirit and even then it’s all a process of learning, to find the materials and form them as you go. You might even need to adjust what you already made, but all is for a purpose of what you need.

I want to thank all my followers on Google+ and all the wounder full persons around me for reading and commenting and  having an opinion about what they read. after all that is the true engine of friendship, it is to have something  together to like, talk discuss and be passion about.

Also a thanks to all my frinds on Facebook…

Thanks for all your support though hours of long chats and links to read and learn from in all aspects..

Happy New Year and thanks for a 2012 I can’t wait to see what 2013 will bring, but only time will show..

As you may know I have also taken an interest in reading the Tarot, and written a little about it in my last 2 posts. The thing I have come to Learn is that the 22 major Arcana cards of the Tarot deck can be laid out on the paths between the 10 Sephirots of the Tree of Life.

Today I decided to make my own A3 size poster with the many colors, symbols and 22 Tarot cards, and what a good way to combine free software, creativity and the Qabalah.

I used Inkscape, a free and OpenSource software under the GPL, to lay it all out, it have been my favor vector based program for the last many years. I found a “sparkle” in my work today. Ever sens my wife left me, I had have so many empty walls to decorated in a way that symbolize me, and what a person I really am. I’m pretty sure that this creative energy Qabalah, Tarot and Inkscape will find it’s way to those walls beginning with what I made today.

I here share the Inkscape  SVG file and as everything I do, I release it under Creative Commons, so feel free to download it, play with it and print it for you self or anyone else, and very free to share what you make back to the public.

The meaning of the words is: As above, so below; the power and glory; for ever and ever, Amen

I have learned the numbers and the suits, and what elements they represent, also the Major Acane card is in place. It is funny how easy the numbers make it to remember the meanings of the cards, and the tablue, when you think of life.

I have become a normal practices for me lately, to draw a card or 3 or even a Celtic Cross in the morning, to guide my self to the day. It is impressive how your brain work in contrast to visual understanding in a creative sense. I even feel that I have become closer to my creative part of my brain, and found the sparkle in drawing colors and paintings again, and to dream about stuff that I want. I don’t know how it can happen, but before my divorce I had very little contact to that side, but lately it have grown and become more natural for me.

I even found my old  crystals from my youth and arrange them in my new showcase in my office at my house. Just to see all that stuff again makes me dream about all the crazy stuff I did back then. and the open and free mind I lived under. Some may say I have become a grownup, but a big part of me is still the adventures kid there can make a fantasy world from almost anything. I think that my soon is liking it a lot.

But I have become more in control of my spiritual site… even when the loneliness surrounding me  often takes me down, I think that the imagination of a kid is extreme useful way up of the dark hole.

Still I’m missing a loving partner in my life, but I have come to understand that lonelihood, is not that bad, but it is the ultimate way of learning from the silent surrounding me every now and then.

I know that every time I draw a card from universal wait deck it is a random card, but somehow I think and believe that there is a meaning with everything, and the way a picture in a card can work it’s way in you mind, is wonderful. I surely believe that  the Tarot is wise from many years of wisdom, after all there is no one there know when the first deck came in to this world…

All the art of the tons of Tarot deck’s out-there is also a great way to stimulate your visual feelings, and after the visual there are so many different believes and  cutlers there bring life to the pictures in the different decks, myths and sagas from all over the world is also a way to understand the meaning of a draw.

So I have found a new hobby there makes me a so much stronger in my self believe, and a way to socialize with new interesting groups of persons all over the world thanks to Google+ and Facebook.

Laura if you read this thanks for the good training, I know that there is a big crowd of Tarot readers there would benefit from a Live reading using Google+ hangouts that I really hope you have the time and are able to find the like to do such a live session. I would be glad to help you technical in any way….

I always had this huge interest in the Qabalah mostly from getting to “know” the person called David Wells though the very old TV series called “Most Haunted”  but also my growing interest in the mindfulness as a personal way to gain my balance after the divorce, and the disappointment there followed with all the betrayal and dark feelings.

I try to meditate and challenges my understanding of my self as a  spiritual person, mostly to find my extreme senses, there always have been a frighting experiences all the way back to my childhood. The ability to hear sounds at a very low frequency and my visual gift of seeing the world in colors even on a visual level. Some may call it high sensitivity, but in dark times where everything seems so hard, and feeling raging against my better judgment, they become a force I’m proud of. Beginning to live with it instead of running from it and hiding in broken relationships. The idea of being alone just 3 months ago was scary and almost forced me in to a new broken relationship, but though the help of my psychologist there also have a huge insight to the the world of mindfulness, I’m learning to live on my own, and starting to do the things I have been suppressing the last 13 years.

So why is it that I find the Tarot so interesting…? Well it’s the ability that mediums have, the way to interpreted visual inputs in pictures, symbols sounds and short words, that the Tarot trains you in. I know that we all have the ability to use our 3rd eye and our minds to see existence in a non physical way, but being able to catch and tune in to the none physical level, is a hard thing to learn , not hard as in physical hard, but in finding the peace and relaxation to make you self relax and not turn your head in to the light is the challenge of the job. All which I hope the Tarot can teach me over time.